Things and stuff

Dear 2008,

Suck it.

love, alice

P.S. I think my phone fell out of my pocket and was swallowed by an auto-flushing toilet. I wish I was kidding.

Truthfully, I do not have any good ideas. Or well to be even more clear, I barely have ideas at all let alone good ones. Nevermind that I work for a company that is trying to bill itself as an idea company and we are constantly poked and prodded for the “next big bet”. When confronted with the idea of “think big or go home” (on a quarterly basis) the thought of going home is my first inclination.

Despite all that, I feel a strong desire to create something large, useful and in collaboration with others. A major hindrance to that being the only thing I consider myself talented in (and then only marginally) is writing software, and lately my spare time has been spent trying to not use a computer. Truthfully, writing code is probably the only thing I am good at and I have lost pretty much any passion I had for the act in the last few years (which bodes well for when I’m laid off for not having new ideas).

So what am I supposed to create? When I attended the Independent Games Festival in 2007, the panelists all talked about using creativity and innovation as if it were an SDK available from Microsoft or part of OpenGL. But where do ideas come from in the first place? I guess I should take more showers or something which seems perverse and often baffling.

Truthfully, beginning sentences with the word “truthfully” three times in one entry is probably too much.